my bonda oh my bonda

Life has a way with us - somehow. No matter how hard we try to escape from it. More often than not, we found ourselves entangled and get caught up in the in-betweens. And sometimes those matters are so dear to us - yet it would be better NOT said nor Done. And it haunt us like forever - lingering and causing us more and more hang-ups. And when that happens, the toll is just too much to bear.

Recently, I saw a drastic change of my bonda's attitude. While it is for the better, it also means that her days are numbered - so I'm thinking. And that makes me a little (a lot really) sad. It is like she is whispering to my ears that she will meet Allah S.W.T very soon. I'm so scared really. But I'm redha somehow.

She can't walk now. Me and my brother have just employed a maid for her. She seems content and very happy with the maid. Bad excuses for me and my sibbligs for not able to attend to her needs. But I'm glad that the maid that she picked is working out well. And just recently, she agreed to stay in my home - I mean in one of my houses that I'm not living.

That is a change really - for her especially. She has been a very strong and independent person. So she has always wanted to live in her own house. And now with her condition and with the maid to attend to her needs, she agrees to live in my house - while she rent her own place. That way I reasoned that my step-dad don't have to work for money but only for leisure. And my step dad is getting older (though he is 10 yrs younger than my bonda). I hope I'll give him the sense of working is no longer a mandatory. I do hope they can spend more time for leisure.

My heart cried yesterday nite, as I was thinking of her. Whatever the case is, I want my bonda to know and feel that she is well loved by her children. And by Allah's Grace, if her time is up, I do hope that she will go in peace and accepted by Allah for all her little or big deeds. And that she knows that we all luv her truly and we forgive her (if ever) for her misdeeds towards us. She is one woman I know who had made quantum leap progress in taking charge of her own life. And my principle in life is very much like her.

She will be going through a knee-cap operation next month. Though many such ops were successful, I have relatives who passed-away due to some complication after such simple surgery. I'm scared and I do pray and hope that she will go through this successfully. And that she will live longer for us to continue showering our love for her. InsyaAllah Amin.

I do hope you all pray for her well-being too. InsyaAllah. Amin

Praying for yr spritual advancement as I've wished you've prayed for mine. Insyaallah. Amin.

Here's a tribute to my beloved bonda and all other mothers.

May Allah Bless her always.